Sunday, August 9, 2009

A Life Time Covenant

Yesterday was my dearest cousin sister's wedding. Once in a life time. The wedding was splendid. But, the love that binds the couple together is the most touching and wonderful thing, and it outshown the beautiful lakeside scene of Saujana Resort.



A pretty and romantic garden wedding, with the presence of their beloved parents, relatives and friends to bless and share their happiness, Romance in the air, with laughters of my little cousins running around the playground, red carpet and flowers, are the footage of the wedding.


Under the blazing sun in the afternoon, everyone is waiting, especially the bridegroom. Sweating, but still remain in his white smart coat, with a smile on his face, nervously lingered around the front stage for his beloved wife-to-be. And finally, with the Canon und D in the air, the bride, under her pure white veil, emerged from the doorstep. Escorted by my handsome and fatherly uncle, approaching the bridegroom one step at a time on the red carpet. (Notice why there wasn't anyone sitting on the right side, it's too hot!)


"Yes, she is here...My bride..the smile on her face is for me..she blushes for me..her white wedding gown is for me..everyone is here for us.." These were all on his face. Yes, he waited for her, for life..(And here I am =PP)



Love is patience, it looks for a way of being constructive. It is not possissive; it is neither anxious to impress nor does it cherish inflated ideas of its own importance. Love has good manners and does not pursue selfish advantage. It is not touchy. It does not keep account of evil or gloat over the wickedness of other people. Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. It is, in fact, the one thing that still stands while all else has fallen. This is the definition of love by God. It is an action, not a feeling.

The pastor told us that marriage is, in fact, the second most important decision for all of us, after the acceptance of Jesus Christ into our lives. Marriage maintains love. 'What God put together, let no man put asunder' God knows our decision, He knows who we will choose to marry. He knows us so well, our strength and our weakness. Hard times now and then of the newly weds are times for them to learn to love each other, as Christ loves the church. These are chances given by God for them to hold tight, hand in hand, to face the challenges in their lives. Yes, God will help us before we found our true loves, and God will help us more after we found ours.

The fortunate bridegroom finally received the bride's hand from my uncle, hold tight in his hand, they turned to the pastor. That was the beginning of their new lives, where the bridegroom were to take full responsibilities of his bride till the end of their lives. The father had passed his beloved daughter to him. Then, the pastor asked my uncle if he gives his consent for the marriage of his daughter, and my uncle said :"Yes, I do." Wow! This is awesome! With an exciting voice, they exchanged the marriage vows. "I take you to be my lawful wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part. As God is my witness, I give you my promise." This is soo sweet. And yes, they are!


The rings, signifying the covenant of a life time were with the pastor. He handed it over to bridegroom, and asked him to wear it on the bride's finger. And, finally, after everything was done, the pastor said:"Now, Richard (the bridegroom), you may do your first task as a husband." Aha, this is the romantic part! The bridegroom unveiled the bride, and kissed her..Aww...so so so so romantic...(oh well, they couldn't stop kissing after that, they really really couldn't help it! And everyone was laughing=PP)


She finally found her true love of life, and waited so long for this special day. And yes, she is beautiful..blessed by her parents and friends, awaiting for the new life with her husband, and yet, she knows, we will always be there for her when she needs us, as we are the witness of their marriage, and their love. Like me! ^^

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

你知道我现在想做什么吗?

是牵着你的手,在开满小黄花的草地上走呀走,享受带着花香的微风迎面而来。


这,是你形容的春天。

Sunday, July 26, 2009

A girl. A girl blessed by God. Surrounded by her family and beloved ones, she has big dreams. Dream to become like Mother Teresa some days. Dream to love, to share her love with those that’s surrounding her. And I wonder how she can one day forget how to love when she is so loved. But, still, the sense of insecurity is bothering her. Yes, a girl like her, described as a girl that thinks too much, is thinking much again. Haha.

God, she fears. Fear that one day she will love you no more, and love your people no more. God, she fears. That she will forget about others when she is so blessed. God, may you be the source of happiness for her, always and always, may you not forsake her even when the world does. She just wants to declare how much she loves you. She wants her heart to be in it, Lord. She really wants.

A couple of weeks later, she will leave her protective parents, her family and her mentors, to discover the whole new world that’s waiting. Yes, there is excitement, and yes, there is fear. Excited to explore total different world, and yet feared by the thought that she will loss herself. God, you know she is not as tough as the world think she is. And you know all her weaknesses. And thank you Lord, for blessing her with her wonderful friends that are going to accompany her for the rest of her engineering life. And God, that’s me. The girl. Hah! God, may you bless those that I am going to part with, my family, especially my mom and dad, Rachel, Shin Ying and Xin Yun.

Rachel dear, I can’t imagine the life without you, the girl that I can laugh and cry with, the wonderful girl that is by my side when I really need one. Dear, I really can’t imagine what would happen to me if you were not there for me 1 year ago, and the scene is still playing itself in my head, that I was in your house, crying to you, tired and afraid. And I can remember the day, with tears in your eyes, asking if I would ever leave you alone in Malaysia. And I know pretty well that you were helpless, and all I could do was to give you a warm embrace, and told you that I was going to stay back in Taylors with you. And now dear, it is about time for me to leave, too. But, I know you had found your dream in medicine and friends that are surrounding you. And, don’t forget to update me when you are ready to say hello to courtship, k? ^^

Shin Ying dear, a tough girl, but soft in the inside. It would be hard for us to say goodbye. But I know we will be alright. Haha, just remember to focus on your dream k? Be happy with what you have and who you are, and I am proud to have you as my friend, shin ying.

~Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6~ God, I know you are going to be with me, always and always, no matter where I am. If you are speaking to me through my mentors, please let it be if it is your will. For me, it will be a tough one. But God, you are refining me with these big and small hardships to be a better person; and in the meanwhile, making me to love and trust you more and more, isn’t it?

It’s fate, for us to meet each other. But it is trust that binds us together. Meisy dear, really can’t imagine my life in Taylors without you. We nearly do everything together. Laugh together, cry together, projects, experiments, karaoke, ma pou, steamboat, reddy’s and marwan’s tests..Haha, you are one of few that I really love to talk to, to share my heart, and thanks for lending me your ears always.. =P

And there is a guy, exactly as old as me, but much taller and bigger size, how can I describe him? Oh ya, if I am to stand behind him, I will no longer be visible. And he will never know how much I appreciate it when he spent his time, called me from a far away land just to listen to me, and tried to understand how I feel, and cheered me up when I was really, really down, when I was hindered by fear and hopelessness. And when everyone was busy with their lives, he was there.. Shaun, thanks for everything k? I am blessed to have you by my side.

Looking at the pasts, and dreaming about the future. I am contented and blessed with my life now. And thank God, for coloring my life with the precious ones.

Monday, July 20, 2009

在成长的过程中,学到了距离是美。在彼此之间留下的距离,站在远方更能看清楚对方。无论是亲情,爱情,友情,任何的感情,双方靠得太近,反而会因为感性而变得不理智。如果说,理智是必然的。但如果感情里充满了理智,那就不是感情了。要找到那个平衡点其实不容易啊。

两情若是久长时,又岂在朝朝暮暮。真的爱一个人,心灵力量必然强大,无须时时刻刻紧密纠缠,不见面的时候,仍然在思念中,更完整的品位着爱人的气息,声音与形貌。就像聆听人乐章之后,我们必得在寂寞中回味,绕梁三日的余音袅袅。保持相爱的距离,才有美感,展览出恋者的智慧

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Everything I have

I feel like I never measure up to who you see
Sometimes I think I can't give you all the love you need
You keep changing everyday
Amazing me in everyway.

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I never dreamed I could ever feel the way I do
I hope and pray I will always be enough for you
I can only do my best
I have to trust you with the rest

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I promise I will hold you through the changes and fears
When life seems unclear
And when I can't be right there with you
I know there's angels by your side

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything... I have

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Emo (A negligible post) =P

我从来没有那么失落过。这种心情不是滋味。

女孩,我好久都没有那么想放弃当一个女孩的想法了。当一个女生,上帝的女生,是值得骄傲的。一直以来,我都好努力的去当一个上帝眼中的女孩。直到开始放假了,我应该因为能有更多的时间休息而感到轻松才是的。但是,这种感觉是不好的。我知道,我知道要当一个好女孩,不是时时刻刻都要感觉超然。但是,这次的情绪真的不是自己能够去控制的。

好讨厌这种感觉。这种自怜自哀的感觉。我是比别人幸福的啊!我没有权利不开心吧。或许藏在心里的话太多,但却不可能影响其他人的情绪呀!况且,他们也没有办法真正帮助到我。最能帮助自己的人,是自己。

很多人说,我很像个女生。她们梦想中的女生。有时候,我会引以为傲。因为我是快乐的。我是幸福的。或许自己觉得自己太幸福了,到了幸福的顶端,没有目标了,所以才会感觉失落? 我怎么这么无聊啊?我想,我果真是太无聊了。无聊到在部落格里乱写一通。

有时,真的不想那么理智。读者们,不好意思。就让我在这里发泄情绪一次吧!

累了,走路不再顾及姿态优美。累了,说话不再顾及温和柔弱。累了,想法不再理智果断。累了,心情不再快乐开朗。累了,真的累了。

伟伶,其实我不是你想象中的那么lovely, lovingly lovable。我好像只会口说吧。你也会觉得累?我们会不会看错了方向呢?我知道,我们要做上帝的女孩,是非常困难的一件事。上帝会知道吧?我知道要把自己的全部都交给他,才会从中找会自己。头脑告诉了我,我知道。但心呢?要真正的做到是很困难的一件事..

不是说吗?只要有一颗石子大的信心就能够移山吗?表面上我是一位很好很乖的上帝女孩。其实内心里真正的信心可能连空气中的灰尘还渺小吧。你知道吗?德蕾莎修女辞世后的10年,她的日记被公开了。在其中的一篇写到:天堂其实什么都不是,我的世界是黑暗的。其实,像她那么美好的光明天使,都会有失落,累的时候。更别说一个平凡的我了。有一位神父解开了德蕾莎修女写这幕后的原因,他说,当自己觉得内心空空荡荡的时候,会想到上帝,还会想相信上帝,其实就是接触到上帝了。我真的好想,好想再听到他的声音。

其实,我开心过。真正的开心过。当把自己全然的放下。当自己受伤的心一层一层的被上帝治疗好。其实是可以感觉到我的心由黯淡的红变的鲜玫瑰红。当时的心,是活着的,是灿烂的,是美好的。可以再让我的心情好起来吗?我诚心的祷告。

我希望在我出国后,妈妈的身体会依然健康。我希望在我出国后,爸爸会很爱这个家,会很爱妈妈,很爱弟弟妹妹。我希望在我出国后,我的弟弟也已经长大了,可以保护妈妈了。我希望在我出国后,我的两个妹妹不会受到欺负。

可能吧。可能真的因为要出国了,心情才会那么差。其实,我真的很爱我的家。忧心,取代了爱。或许,平时爸爸妈妈说我们,批评我们也是因为这个原因吧。他们让忧心取代了爱在家庭的位置。这是不对的,大家都知道是不对的。但就是忍不住要担心,要批评。

出国了,家里会怎么样呢?我清楚明白,学业的事,我能搞定;感情的事,我虽然搞不定但也不会为此忽略荒废学业;健康的事,虽然也是没眼看,但至少还能呼吸。只有家庭的事吧只有家庭的事能让我崩溃,让我失落,让我流泪,让我的心沉没海底。

我希望,我以后的家庭不会有那么的风波。虽说,家家有本难念的经,但我会尽我的权利,做好我的角色,就向现在一样,我已经尽力了,做好了我女儿,姐姐的角色,就已经没有遗憾了。

其实,我真的很爱你们

在我累了的时候,s你还会爱我吗?

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

~1 Corinthians 14:35~



I do not need to possess you to love.
With this I am clear.

The love is genuine and true,

Without even a hint of selfishness and possessiveness.

If the fire is meant to last forever,
Let it not be awaken until the right time.

Because,
the love I am saying is crystal clear and pure,
cheered by hearts and blessed by God..